The whimsies of Deathlord Bob and Friends

Yea so not sure if I do many personal introspective/retrospective/something-spective but this will kind of people. My life seems to be a mish-mash of general confusion of late especially relating to other people. Whereas in many areas I know where I'm going and where I'm coming from socially I have little idea of either. Kind of know where I have been, it's easier to look back at life and discern what you've done to an extent. Mistakes you've made and things you wish you'd done differently are constant remindors that you could've done better but also that (hopefully) you've grown in maturity and understanding of people. As to whether I have grown or not I am not sure. Some areas certainly I can point out but many of them I would consider non-social although they may relate to social aspects.

I have found a certain serenity and peace in life even if I haven't learned how to rely on it fully. For those of you who've gotten e-mails from me you've seen the tagline in my signature and of course it's always present here. I keep it around because I need to be reminded of that constantly. Like so much of this blog it's as much a benefit to me as to anyone else who reads it. Kind of selfish in that but blogs to an extent are selfish things.

Ok, think whatever frustration at myself is bleeding away. Kind of funny because I felt I did a really good workout today and in general that, for Mondays, this went well. Finished 6 Days of War last night. Really want to know what happens in the Yom Kippur War so will have to probably buy a book on that. Picked up The Road to Stalingrad and intend to plow through that. I think it should be an initially a fast read, the parts I went through in England were good. Something about a doomed war really intrigues me and for the Soviets everything up to Stalingrad had "doomed war" written all over it. Wonder how The Road to Berlin compares. I'll find out eventually. Probably going to tag team Stalingrad with Letters from a Skeptic (or is it Critic, i always get it confused). Both books appeal to very different parts of me so kind of a battle of which gets read first. Really Letters has the lead cause I have gotten farther through it in chronological order. Probably pretty close page wise although this because I had to read the battle of Moscow sections of Stalingrad for History in London. I really do love history.

This will be a long week. As usual lots to get done. I feel confused but not overly burdened or oppressed. As long as I don't get lost I'll be fine.

Faith manages.